You Are So Strong
Dear You,
You are so strong for stepping out of bed today. You are so strong for putting on a T-shirt and a pair of sweatpants / any clothes (even if they are just semi presentable), and yes it's okay, we can work on wearing a bra too on an other day. You are so strong for swiping on a bit of that mascara, and putting on your sneakers. You are so strong for pulling your shoelace over, under, around and through, meeting Mr. Bunny Rabbit and pulling it though. You, yes you, are so strong for putting one foot after the other, again and again, taking one step after another - no matter if you're not sure where you're going.
You are so strong for eating lunch. You are so strong for being able to enter the dining hall. You are so strong for holding your head up, walking pass the tables of judgemental, whispering kids, and making it to the table you want to sit at. You are so strong for sitting alone sometimes. You are so strong for sitting with new friends, and being not quite sure what to say, or how to keep a conversation going.
You are so strong for creasing your lips, tightening your cheeks, and showing that little smile of yours, that little sign of hope for me, and that little light for all - even if sometimes you're feeling like you're forcing it, or that your smile probably looks maaaad stupid because you're not quite sure if you're doing it quite right - just flash that grin, gorgeous.
You are so strong for getting through the day, battling the voices in your head, and making it to classes on time or not. You are so strong for making mistakes. You are so strong for confidentally raising your hand and blurting out the complete wrong answer. You are so strong for asking for help, even if you think it's a dumb question and something that you should already know.
You are so strong for putting your phone away and deleting his number. You are so strong for scrolling up, seeing the pictures, and not tearing up. Okay, maybe you teared up a little bit, but you didn't burst into tears like last time. It'll be better the next time.
You are so strong for selecting each picture with his face on it, and watching the memories slide harshly in the little garbage icon in the corner of your phone. You are so strong for thinking that that was a little cruel, but then realizing that this was what you needed. You are so strong for taking a breath out. You are so strong for keeping some of the memories - for realizing some things are meant to be kept, are meant to be respected and kept as your little secret. You are so strong for respecting a friendship. You are so strong for declaring a heart broken, a relationship wrecked and that this wasn't meant to be. You are so strong for giving distance. You are so strong for crying when you figure out his grandma dies. Even though you have no idea who she is, and that you couldn't be more ridiculous for feeling like you need a respectable distance from your friends for a little bit of time to grieve. You are so strong for accepting that it's hard that he doesn't want your comfort.
You are so strong for finally figuring you did good. You did all the good that you could do.
You are so strong for not sleeping with that boy. You are so strong for not walking over to his room because sometimes you can't say no. You are so strong for ignoring a drunken Snapchat asking you to come over. No matter how many times he calls your pretty or cute. No matter how hot he is, no matter how cute his butt is, or how perfectly scuplted his abs are... okay, we're getting a little off track here - BUT - you are so strong for saying no. In fact, you're super hot for saying no. You are sexy as hell when you are respectable. Dammmmnnnn, is that a new shade of self-respect I am seeing on you?! Cause you are rocking it giiiirl.
You are so strong for staying in bed today. You are so strong for crying rivers and canals into the snot-stained sheets. You are so strong for eating that dang double chocolate cookie that you wanted. Good for you! Go you! You are so strong for letting out all the tears, and all the complaints. You are so strong for telling the truth, even if you think it's hard for people to hear, or for you to ever admit. You are so strong for not crying every time country music goes on the radio.
You are so strong for breathing.
You are so strong for living.
So when I ask if you're okay, and you say yeah, I know that that will be partly true - because you are indeed, so strong, because all of us are so strong for just being able to exist, to live. We make life look too easy, when the truth is it is so so darn hard. It is also so darn lonely, which I guess has its beauty to it. You are right, you are okay, because you got you. And you, my friend, have lived through a ton. There must be people who don't have the strength that you have to endure what you go through - and that's a pretty amazing thought right? You literally gain some kind of power, toughness, edge, and endurance like a superhero from these pains. Maybe you don't catch falling buildings or fight aliens, but, you literally go through things everyday that are impossible to know the ends to because, no one has ever been through what you are about to encounter. It literally is impossible to know what the outcome is, because at the end of the day, your circumstance is unique to your own personal being. No one will ever be in the exact, 100% replicate of whatever you are going through. You're literally walking into an unknown, chartering fresh, completely unknown to the rest of humankind territory. And that, my friend, is pretty darn brave. That is pretty damn strong. You are so strong.
But know that you are not alone. Through the dark and the unknown, my friend, you are never alone.
I love you, truly, I do.
- teeny, tiny & terrified too.
You are so strong for stepping out of bed today. You are so strong for putting on a T-shirt and a pair of sweatpants / any clothes (even if they are just semi presentable), and yes it's okay, we can work on wearing a bra too on an other day. You are so strong for swiping on a bit of that mascara, and putting on your sneakers. You are so strong for pulling your shoelace over, under, around and through, meeting Mr. Bunny Rabbit and pulling it though. You, yes you, are so strong for putting one foot after the other, again and again, taking one step after another - no matter if you're not sure where you're going.
You are so strong for eating lunch. You are so strong for being able to enter the dining hall. You are so strong for holding your head up, walking pass the tables of judgemental, whispering kids, and making it to the table you want to sit at. You are so strong for sitting alone sometimes. You are so strong for sitting with new friends, and being not quite sure what to say, or how to keep a conversation going.
You are so strong for creasing your lips, tightening your cheeks, and showing that little smile of yours, that little sign of hope for me, and that little light for all - even if sometimes you're feeling like you're forcing it, or that your smile probably looks maaaad stupid because you're not quite sure if you're doing it quite right - just flash that grin, gorgeous.
You are so strong for getting through the day, battling the voices in your head, and making it to classes on time or not. You are so strong for making mistakes. You are so strong for confidentally raising your hand and blurting out the complete wrong answer. You are so strong for asking for help, even if you think it's a dumb question and something that you should already know.
You are so strong for putting your phone away and deleting his number. You are so strong for scrolling up, seeing the pictures, and not tearing up. Okay, maybe you teared up a little bit, but you didn't burst into tears like last time. It'll be better the next time.
You are so strong for selecting each picture with his face on it, and watching the memories slide harshly in the little garbage icon in the corner of your phone. You are so strong for thinking that that was a little cruel, but then realizing that this was what you needed. You are so strong for taking a breath out. You are so strong for keeping some of the memories - for realizing some things are meant to be kept, are meant to be respected and kept as your little secret. You are so strong for respecting a friendship. You are so strong for declaring a heart broken, a relationship wrecked and that this wasn't meant to be. You are so strong for giving distance. You are so strong for crying when you figure out his grandma dies. Even though you have no idea who she is, and that you couldn't be more ridiculous for feeling like you need a respectable distance from your friends for a little bit of time to grieve. You are so strong for accepting that it's hard that he doesn't want your comfort.
You are so strong for finally figuring you did good. You did all the good that you could do.
You are so strong for not sleeping with that boy. You are so strong for not walking over to his room because sometimes you can't say no. You are so strong for ignoring a drunken Snapchat asking you to come over. No matter how many times he calls your pretty or cute. No matter how hot he is, no matter how cute his butt is, or how perfectly scuplted his abs are... okay, we're getting a little off track here - BUT - you are so strong for saying no. In fact, you're super hot for saying no. You are sexy as hell when you are respectable. Dammmmnnnn, is that a new shade of self-respect I am seeing on you?! Cause you are rocking it giiiirl.
You are so strong for staying in bed today. You are so strong for crying rivers and canals into the snot-stained sheets. You are so strong for eating that dang double chocolate cookie that you wanted. Good for you! Go you! You are so strong for letting out all the tears, and all the complaints. You are so strong for telling the truth, even if you think it's hard for people to hear, or for you to ever admit. You are so strong for not crying every time country music goes on the radio.
You are so strong for breathing.
You are so strong for living.
So when I ask if you're okay, and you say yeah, I know that that will be partly true - because you are indeed, so strong, because all of us are so strong for just being able to exist, to live. We make life look too easy, when the truth is it is so so darn hard. It is also so darn lonely, which I guess has its beauty to it. You are right, you are okay, because you got you. And you, my friend, have lived through a ton. There must be people who don't have the strength that you have to endure what you go through - and that's a pretty amazing thought right? You literally gain some kind of power, toughness, edge, and endurance like a superhero from these pains. Maybe you don't catch falling buildings or fight aliens, but, you literally go through things everyday that are impossible to know the ends to because, no one has ever been through what you are about to encounter. It literally is impossible to know what the outcome is, because at the end of the day, your circumstance is unique to your own personal being. No one will ever be in the exact, 100% replicate of whatever you are going through. You're literally walking into an unknown, chartering fresh, completely unknown to the rest of humankind territory. And that, my friend, is pretty darn brave. That is pretty damn strong. You are so strong.
But know that you are not alone. Through the dark and the unknown, my friend, you are never alone.
I love you, truly, I do.
- teeny, tiny & terrified too.
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