Pick-Me-Ups of the Week #6
This summer has not been easy. I haven't been able to talk to my best friend, who will be away for 2 months - and most of my friends are across the globe, sleeping when I'm awake and awake when I'm asleep. Summers for me have not been easy for the past three years - and I blame myself for this. I've become anxiety filled and I have difficulties sleeping at night. I used to get super excited to head back to Blair, but this year I don't even have that to look forward to. I guess there's the excitement to start at college, but even that is more terrifying than exciting to me.
I know things can be difficult, and this is what my blogs are all about - it's about trying to find a way to get through the bad times and trying to stay positive, happy, full and Jesus loving. It's so hard to find light in certain situations, and sometimes you feel like you're just spiralling in a hole of suffering and self-deprecation, but I say that's enough of that. Let's start looking up okay?
You and me, it's scary I know - but the end result is this - everything's gonna be okay. I feel it.
#1
On the plane ride home, I have this ritual. I always take the midnight flight out of the states and land in Hong Kong at around 5 AM in the morning. When I take the flight out, I always fall asleep for the first 7-8 hours of the flight. I have this sacrament - every time I wake up from my nap, I will open my window to see the sky. If the sky is beautiful and colourful that meant that there was hope. The direction of this light is also crucial - as it means that coming back to America is going to be bright, beautiful and colourful. Hopeful. Yes, I know this is so stupid and something I shouldn't believe in - but to me it's one of God's endless signs that I should never ever lose hope - and whatever is heavy in my heart suddenly gets lifted.
Now I'm not saying to believe in superstitions or maybe you're not someone who believes in God's signs, but what I'm trying to say that there is always hope. Even when there's complete darkness and it seems like nothing can work, I always have hope - which I think is my greatest flaw yet also my greatest trait that I have.
#2
A quote -
Peter at this point is reaching his older age, and he's wise and sagacious and hardcore and swaggy - he's learned so much from God - and yet sometimes, he's still anxious. He still has anxiety - just like me, just like you, just like your mom, and just like your dad - just like every person you know. Anxiety as you get older doesn't just go away - people still have it - there's still an asphyxiating kind of bubble of stress that doesn't go away. So what do you do at that point?
You turn to God.
You turn to whatever you believe in, whatever will help you take whatever is rooted in your heart and give it away. You put it in a box, tie the ribbon on it and toss it out the window.
#3
The other day I was lucky enough to take Justin out to Sai Kung - a very, very, very far away part of Hong Kong that most people would never even knew existed. It was magical. If nature doesn't fucking blow your mind as it is, I don't know what could bring you greater joy. The water was marble green, almost emerald - still. Your soul is friggin taken away to a whole new world and you remember that the world is a beautiful place.
I know things can be difficult, and this is what my blogs are all about - it's about trying to find a way to get through the bad times and trying to stay positive, happy, full and Jesus loving. It's so hard to find light in certain situations, and sometimes you feel like you're just spiralling in a hole of suffering and self-deprecation, but I say that's enough of that. Let's start looking up okay?
You and me, it's scary I know - but the end result is this - everything's gonna be okay. I feel it.
#1
On the plane ride home, I have this ritual. I always take the midnight flight out of the states and land in Hong Kong at around 5 AM in the morning. When I take the flight out, I always fall asleep for the first 7-8 hours of the flight. I have this sacrament - every time I wake up from my nap, I will open my window to see the sky. If the sky is beautiful and colourful that meant that there was hope. The direction of this light is also crucial - as it means that coming back to America is going to be bright, beautiful and colourful. Hopeful. Yes, I know this is so stupid and something I shouldn't believe in - but to me it's one of God's endless signs that I should never ever lose hope - and whatever is heavy in my heart suddenly gets lifted.
Now I'm not saying to believe in superstitions or maybe you're not someone who believes in God's signs, but what I'm trying to say that there is always hope. Even when there's complete darkness and it seems like nothing can work, I always have hope - which I think is my greatest flaw yet also my greatest trait that I have.
#2
A quote -
1 Peter 5:6-7New International Version (NIV)
6 Humble yourselves, therefore, under God’s mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. 7 Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.
Peter at this point is reaching his older age, and he's wise and sagacious and hardcore and swaggy - he's learned so much from God - and yet sometimes, he's still anxious. He still has anxiety - just like me, just like you, just like your mom, and just like your dad - just like every person you know. Anxiety as you get older doesn't just go away - people still have it - there's still an asphyxiating kind of bubble of stress that doesn't go away. So what do you do at that point?
You turn to God.
You turn to whatever you believe in, whatever will help you take whatever is rooted in your heart and give it away. You put it in a box, tie the ribbon on it and toss it out the window.
#3
The other day I was lucky enough to take Justin out to Sai Kung - a very, very, very far away part of Hong Kong that most people would never even knew existed. It was magical. If nature doesn't fucking blow your mind as it is, I don't know what could bring you greater joy. The water was marble green, almost emerald - still. Your soul is friggin taken away to a whole new world and you remember that the world is a beautiful place.
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