Pick-Me-Ups of the Week #10

Well folks, I cannot believe we’ve come to number 10. Diez. That is so dope. I feel like we’ve come a long way. From High School to College now, I almost feel like a different person. I hope though, I kept the good parts of me - the parts I hope I will never change. I hope you keep those parts of you too.

Without further ado, les go.


#1

A photo - 


This exact photo was taken a year ago on this day. This was on the way back to New York City from Kent in Connecticut. Funny because currently I am sitting on the exact same train back from Kent to the City, except this time, I am not under distress, I am not fighting with my sister and I am looking forward to so much to come. 

I miss taking photos. I mean I don’t miss the way I sometimes feel like a creepy-ish stalker trying to capture  pictures of people who look distinct and different, following them, watching their every move… Shiver ugh yuck. I hate that about taking photos, especially what I like to do, pictures of people.

People are probably the worst in this planet, yet they can be the most brilliant subjects and most loving people in this entire planet. People can only surprise you - and I always wonder when I take pictures of other people, what do they end up doing? Where do they end up going? What do they end up becoming? Do they do good things for this planet or do they do bad things? I wish I could capture their whole story, but I capture only a shard of it. I just have this precious fragment of their life. This 1/1000000000 sliver of their luminous life. I get to be apart of that. Maybe I get to be a part of someone’s lowest of lows, or their highest of highs. And isn’t that amazing? Being part of someone’s world? No matter how big or small you may be, you can make an impact, and I think sometimes we forget that. 

#2

A quote - 

“At the end of the day faith is a funny thing. It turns up when you don’t really expect it. It’s like one day you realise that the fairy tale may be slightly different than you dreamed. The castle, well, it may not be a castle. And it’s not so important that it’s happy ever after, just that it’s happy right now. See once in a while, once in a blue loon, people will surprise you, and once in a while people may even take your breath away.”

I have been struggling so much with worrying about my future, what I am doing, whether or not things will turn out the way I want it to, but the truth is - time is fucking precious. So precious. So let it go, those worries, and just live. Live and smile. Smile even if it doesn’t make sense, even when you shouldn’t be smiling because you smiling, that’s you really living, you’re going to smile so much when you look back at your life, I sincerely believe that about you and me. Have faith.

#3

I am struggling with whether or not I am a good person. I know all my friends will be quick to say, “What Lauren!! No you are a good person!!”. We can ask people after people whether or not we are good people, but what matters at the end of the day is what you think of yourself. I know this is so fucking cliche, but I think I haven’t been the best person. I think at times, I really say mean things without even realising it. I am appreciative that I realise after when I am being a bit of a bitch, and I become very apologetic. However, I hope I can detect this before I act. I don’t want to be someone I am not proud of. Keeping a conscious mind is hard to do, but the truth is we just have to. Being nice is exhausting, and sometimes not even fulfilling, but we have to keep doing it. We just do. 

You got this.

YOU are never alone.


                                                                                                - Teeny, TINY, & terrified.

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