What I Wish You Knew

I wish you knew that I still think about you. I think about you all the time, I think about how happy you are, and how I  couldn't have made you as happy as she makes you.
I wish you knew that you are the reason, I cannot look at other boys, why I look to the ground when things get hard, when toxin is pulsing through my veins, all I can feel is you.
I wish you knew every time I don't, I want to text you. I want to fall back into your arms, have you hold me, and let me know that I am safe.
I wish you knew that he hurt me. That I'm not okay, that you would do anything to make me feel safe again.
I wish you knew that everything that I do, I hope it leads back to you. I hope that you would know that I was doing okay.
I wish you knew
that I miss you.

I wish you knew,
that I still love you
not less
not a penny less
I still love you.