Pick-Me-Ups of the Week #15

Hello my fellow sweet, sweet readers:

Welcome to Pick-Me-Ups!!!!! Currently I am dying. I am literally dying from the plague and I am bundled with my toes warmed and my eyes watering while my nose is lighting up like rudolph. I shall  be dead asleep in my bed for a while, community. See ya later bishes !!!!!

Though I may disappear under layers and layers and layers of fluffy blankets, my feelings and motivations for writing a Pick-Me-Up still blossoms.

So here we go! Yip yip!

#1

A photo -

Dis is my school. hehe. This makes me very heppi. There are a lot of moments in college that I realized that you will spend by yourself. You will walk to classes by yourself, you will work by yourself, study by yourself, even eat by yourself sometimes! And yes, maybe once in a while, you'll walk through the remains of a very, very bad blizzard by yourself!!! I know how this may sound, sad right? But think about it from my point of view. It has been snowing dreadfully all day, you've been working all day, Princeton is too efficient that classes are still going, even though your roommate is stuck on Washington Road because a tree has literally fallen down on top of her. However, there comes a moment when all the sudden, the snowflakes settle. There is a warp in time, and it's like the clock has come to a halt. I think I have found Narnia. I mean look at this! Where is my dorm? There is only a path of crystal trees, powdered branches, icicles that glisten while they clink together like champagne glasses as if they are ready to celebrate something really great to come. 

And something really great is coming. There comes a time when after a terrible, terrible blizzard, there is a moment of pure bliss. A moment when disaster becomes something so flawlessly beautiful, all you can do is stand back and appreciate all of this. Your heart will be filled, and you will tell yourself "enough". You are enough. You will hear the muffled sound of your snowboats flopping into grains of fluff, as if you were walking on a fuzzy, outdated TV channel. I mentioned the feeling of fluffiness way, waaaay back in one of my old entries: In this moment, I finally found that sensation of fluffiness again. Things will turn back up, your dip will move upwards, and soon, you'll climb out of your pit. The sun will shine after a terrible blizzard. 

#2 

Not really a quote, but a retelling of a story. 

Losing someone important to us is never easy. I know that maybe no one will read this, but I wanted to leave this here just in case. Just in case you've lost someone important too.

I was hanging out with Emma Nolan’s mom today and we talked about “god”-incidences (kind of like coincidences but waaay more special, you get it?? hehe), and she told me about several instances with her mom (Emma’s grandma) when she died. Emma’s mom was really close to her, and when she got sick, Emma was just born and became their little angel guiding her through the sickness (like how she is mine hehe). However, when it got bad, Emma’s mom and Emma’s grandma decided that they wanted to send Pat (Emma’s dad) away so he wouldn’t have to worry. Pat went to a lake in Michigan, and though he knew Emma’s grandma was sick he didn’t know just how sick she would be. However, while he was in a canoe, and the sky was snowing non stop, suddenly the snow stopped and it was like the world stop moving. A dragonfly appeared out of nowhere (Emma’s grandma’s favorite) and a rainbow appeared. In that instance, Pat knew. He came home, got into bed with Emma’s mom, turned over and said “Your mom is still here today.” Ever since then, and even after she died, Emma’s family continues to see dragonflies in the craziest, coolest ways. Whether they’re somehow bizarrely getting into the house through the garage, or when they’re dancing on a pool in a foreign country in the brightest, bluest, most shimmery colors, they always appear. Whether they tap on the french doors and then disappear once Emma’s mom noticed them, the dragonflies keep showing up. They’re always there. She’s always there. I don’t know if there are dragonflies in your life right now, but I know your grandma is here. She really is. Maybe not in the form of dragonflies, but maybe in the beautiful little things around you in your life you may not notice. I know she makes a mean bowl pasta, maybe she’s there - maybe she’s in the smiles when people eat that pasta, and maybe she’s all around. I know you have all the love and support in the world, but God wants you to know that you are so so SO strong. God loves you and your family so much, I hope you find your dragonflies.

#3

A friendly reminder that good things happen, love is real. We will be okay. We will be okay. If you're still going through something terrible, know that I will always love you. No matter if we don't talk, maybe we don't even know each other, or maybe you think we hate each other - there is just no possible way - you are too beautiful to hate, or to even dislike. You are far too beautiful for me and for this world! Accept your beauty, and use it to do good. And when you're lost, take a gander, and look at the sunshine things of life. Look for the rays, because darling, we will all be okay. :)

I love you.

                                                                                                         - teeny, tiny and terrified