a stream of anxious thoughts

a stream of anxious thoughts

11.12.2019

what if i havent learned anything from everything bad and terrible that i have gone through

what if theres no lesson to this grand scheme of life when i go through shit times

what if i dont become a better person

what if i havent become a better person in the past two years

what if i havent and wont accomplish anything significant in my life

what if i am not significant

what if i am anxious forever

what if my family is sad forever

what if i am sad and i dont even know it

what if i never fully finish something in my life

what if i half ass everything that i do in life

what if god isnt really real

what if i am stuck in my own thoughts forever

what if i am sad and i dont even want to admit it

what if i continue to live in my uncertainty

what if i continue to live in my regret

what if more people dont like me

what if the people that dont like me continue to not like me

what if my home turns into a massacre

what if my home disintegrates

what if if my home doesnt go back to what it was before

what if my home isnt my home anymore

what if i am supposed to end up alone for the rest of my life

what if i end up being a couch potato for the rest of my life

what if love is not enough

what if i am incapable of loving others because i have issues loving myself

what if i never learn how to love myself

what if i cant trust anyone with some of my thoughts

what if no one else feels the way that i feel

what if no one else can empathise with me

what if i am alone in my thoughts

what if i cant sleep on my own

what if i am not independent

what if i am making a big mistake

what if i am taking things for granted

what if i never feel at peace

what if i die today, will i regret what i did yesterday

what if i die tomorrow, will i regret what i did today?