You Will Get Over It

One day, you’ll get over it. The impossible thing that you thought you would never get over - you will. You will find yourself glowing, blushing and feeling just as beautiful as you once did.

One day, you’ll open your world to someone new who will show you what you are worth, even if it’s just for a moment.

One day, that stupid guy that broke your heart, broke your soul and hurt your esteem will regret what he had done. He will be nothing but a speck of dust in your rearview mirror, and someone you finally learn to say no to.

One day, you will know that you are worth all the wait, you are worth so much more than you could have ever imagined. You are worth it, you by yourself, all of you, your whole soul, your whole mind, is worth the wait.

One day, you will realize being alone is the bravest thing you can do.

One day, all those happy memories that make you sad and miss a person that hurt you will only be untouched, happy memories. They become memories that genuienly make you laugh, and accept that in those moments of blind bliss, he made you the happiest you thought you could be, but who would have ever known that there is so much more.

One day, you will look back and forget, when your friends remind you of a silly high school memory, you'll give her that perplexed look, snap up from your glass of red wine and ask her: "Who?" 

One day, you will realize that there is nothing in this world, quite tangible enough to make you happy. You will realize that life doesn't just happen when you finally find that one source of happiness on Earth. You will realize that you can search and search all your life, dead in the soul and waiting for happiness - that that happiness will never really be recieved, and life doesn't quite work like that. 

I guess, life is some sort of twisty rollercoaster, one that flips our whole worlds upside down, inside and out. Sometimes, shit happens and we won't understand why, even when you think you've done everything right. You will sit in your dorm room with your best friend and question and scream why you both lost the break up and why do boys cheat on you?! Even when both of you know the other is the closest anyone is going to get to perfection, and that you both really, truly did care and love and give your all to these dumb, dumb boys. We will never understand why, and you will realize that true closure is unattainable. You can't live life in fear of hurting other people, or under the rules of someone else. You can't live life afraid of pain, and like you aren't worthy of happiness. You are supposed to be the star of your own life, gosh darn it. Happiness is a fight, one that you learn from love. One that you learn that you deserve, and that happiness is what makes you who you are.

I am proud of you. It is a long, long journey - finding yourself. I truly think that you never really truly do until you get to the Big Guy up there. But, I guess, we can try. We can fight. Life is full of ups and downs and YOU are the star. 

One day, you will move on. And life, man, life is going to be great.

I love you.

                                                                                                            - Teeny, tiny and terrified